Yesterday was a really happy day for me... and for us I feel.
It's because we have been together for two years now. And being able to go for our 2nd year anniversary lunch together means a lot. I love how our anniversary lunches have been - always with the best restaurants, in the hands of exemplary and good chefs.
I thought Iggy's was really delightful. Although not everything is great, but it was at least delicious. I like the setting of our tables too. With those books, and quite spaced out tables. It felt homely and inviting all at once. And the staff do not keep an eagle hawk eye on you like Les Amis which can be quite intimidating cos its like everyone is staring at us! :)
So, with this 2nd year anniversary meal being of great significance, let's hope there will be more to come. I already do look forward to next year.
2 years on, I can say I do feel extremely comfortable with you. Even though we just do normal things, like going to shop, eat and exercise, I do feel very fulfilled doing all those with you. Its like we have gotten into a comfortable routine which I can foresee us doing for a long time to come. I like that. I love it even more when I know I'll be doing them with you.
I love you! Hope you enjoyed your day yesterday :)
Dear Din Din,
Just wanna let you know some stuff...
Firstly, I hope you know that I do not ever take anybody's words whole sale. Even my parents, you, Charlene or anyone. Not even God. I always evaluate people's words and if its not in line with what I think or it doesn't make sense, I just dump it aside. I think you should know better? How sometimes when you tell me your ideas or theories and I don't agree with you straight away? Its not that I am trying to be funny or unsupportive. I need to find a reason to feel so before I actually agree with something. And I do not purposely treat you like that. I treat everyone like that. Reason is because I will never take a person's words first hand.
Secondly, when I feel upset or angry with you, and if I complain to others, and they tell me things, I do not just agree with them straight away too. Many a times when people come to me when they are down or angry, I always tell them that they shouldn't judge so fast, but let it cool down a while before making a decision or thinking about it again. I know how the feelings one person feels at the moment can affect their behaviour. And its not that I am rubbing in your face, but I am studying psychology, I study all sorts of unconscious behaviour and I do know about this thing even before I take psychology. So compared to most other people, I would say I really do know more about such stuff. So please don't worry?
Thirdly, in my sms to you on our anniversary. I said that "I will always want to believe in you, love you, hug you and kiss you". The believe in you part is important because I never want to doubt you. You tell me things and I will want to believe your words. If I do ask any more questions, its because I only want to verify my belief in you and not because I want to falsify you. Please keep this in mind. From the bottom of my heart, and whole heartedly, I really REALLY always want to believe in you and nothing else. I do not exist in this relationship to prove that you are wrong. I am here because I know that you only want the best for you and me and that you don't want to hurt me.
I think its good that you tell me such stuff like you did last night. And I also agree with you that I will never wish for the moment to ever come that things go wrong and I will say that you were right all along. I'm glad for all you said because it shows that you treasure me a lot and don't want to lose me to any possibilities like that. Right now, I want to reassure you that I am not just another stupid girl in this relationship. I want to let you know and I promise with everything I've got that I will never stop being together with you because of another guy or third party. I will never do that because I love you and I cannot bear to see you being hurt or sad. I cannot bear to break your heart. Even if another guy who is "better" than you come along, I will not use him to judge my relationship with you. Because like I said, it is really not fair. I will stick with you through thick and thin and this third party thing will NEVER EVER be used on our relationship because I will NOT be led astray by them. I will NEVER let the feelings get to my head because I know what it does and also cos you've told me before. Like what I said. I know all those stuff. I am really not like all those other people whom you've seen in other relationships or your friends kind. In the past I was stupid ok? I always admit that. But that doesnt mean I never learn. Maybe you don't see it in me, but I am mature enough to know what to do in a relationship. I even bitch about the wrong ideas in the media (like in the movies) that lead to so many breakups in real life. Tell me, how many of the people around you can spot that? They don't. They just take in whatever the show does even if the show make it seem as if its ok to have an affair and they don't realise that after seeing so many movies about that they are doing that too in real life. Its not that I think too much or what. Its always when people think that the movie means no harm or that it is just for plain entertainment that they start to unconsciously accept it into their value system. Its always like that. The most dangerous situation is when it appears to be ok and not malicious.
I hope with all this you can gain an insight into how I think for our relationship. It is good to be worried about me, and its good to give reminders once in a while too, but you really don't have to worry too much about me. Because I will never let normal shitty excuses be the reason for not being together with you.
